i don't know what i say but i'm haeving a bad time now

i have proplem with my two big brothers they call me a child koz i watch anime and play with children anywhy after my father gone i don't care i'm nineteen and i want to stay like that jump and play and doing what ever i want the people say to me grow up but i won't grow up to be human without failing

in the end....

i love this song tears and rain i think this song talks about me


How I wish I could surrender my soul;
Shed the clothes that become my skin;
See the liar that burns within my needing.
How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold.
How I wish I had screamed out loud,
Instead I've found no meaning.

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.

How I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind;
Hold memory close at hand,
Help me understand the years.
How I wish I could choose between Heaven and Hell.
How I wish I would save my soul.
I'm so cold from fear.